It's that time of year again, where we make resolutions and plans for the year ahead and leave behind the best and worst of the year before.
It's time to say goodbye to the old and welcome in the new.
2010 was the year that I said goodbye to my beloved Dad, after a humour filled battle with Alzheimers Disease whilst it stole his memories and his independence. It never stole my Dad though - he was there, sparkling amidst the mud he crawled through every day, glinting at me as he took my hand and stroked my cheek, and sang his final "Goodnight girlies".
It was also the year that I said goodbye, once again, to my independence and my driving licence. Alas, epilepsy doesn't care that I had it back for a measly 7 weeks, nor does it care that I cried for an entire day, having tasted freedom before it was snatched again from me.
2011 will be a year of moving forward, of personal development and exploration. And if that doesn't make me sound like a new age hippy, nothing will!
This year I truly intend to get my creative mojo back. It's been pretty much missing for the last couple of years, for various reasons, and finding it may take some time!! However, the intention is to work my way through some exercises and structured lessons (I'll supply a bit more information on these as I go through the year) and really explore what makes me, me.
Part of getting this back is learning to let go of my inner critic. We all have one, it's just that mine has become far too vocal and far too loud recently! Now it's time to tell her to shut her face. I think I spent far too many years (nearly 15) working in a field where I spent my day drawing items with massive attention to detail and very little spontaneity. Actually, cancel that. Make it NO spontaneity. Creativity, which originally was essential for my job and was valued, became a bad thing and was frowned on by the powers that be. My talents were no longer useful, it seemed. Well, it's time to throw off all the habits and rules created and ingrained from that time, and find freedom again.
Fancy joining me? If anyone's up to it, leave a comment, as it would be a lot of fun to do these exercises together and share our results.
Happy New Year everyone. Lang may yer lums reek.



















